Just A Fucked Up Girl

I read the first Alias prequel book today and it reminded me of how much this song makes me think of Jack. Some of it doesn't exactly fit Jack but the emotion behind it, all the regret in it, works perfectly for him. I know I've posted these lyrics before but it's really one of the most beautiful and heartbreaking songs I've ever heard.

I wished I was smarter
I wished I was stronger
I wished I loved Jesus
The way my wife does
I wish it had been easier
Instead of any longer
I wished I could have stood where you would have been proud
But that won't happen now
That won't happen now

There's a whole lot of singing that's never gonna be heard
Disappearing everyday without so much as a word somehow
Think I broke the wings off that little song bird
She's never gonna fly to the top of the world right now
Top of the world

I don't have to answer any of these questions
Don't have no God to teach me no lessons
I come home in the evening
Sit in my chair
One night they called me for supper
But I never got up
I stayed right there in my chair

There's a whole lot of singing that's never gonna be heard
Disappearing everyday without so much as a word somehow
Think I broke the wings off that little song bird
She's never gonna fly to the top of the world right now
Top of the world

I wished I'd a known you
Wished I'd a shown you
All of the things I was on the inside
I'd pretend to be sleeping
When you come in in the morning
To whisper goodbye
Go to work in the rain
I don't know why
Don't know why

'Cause everyone's singing
We just wanna be heard
Disappearing everyday without so much as a word somehow
Wanna grab a hold of that little song bird
Take her for a ride to the top of the world right now

To the top of the world
To the top of the world
To the top of the world
To the top of the world
To the top of the world
To the top of the world
To the top of the world
To the top of the world

I made a Spydaddy icon and some Harry Potter icons featuring Buffy quotes.

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I've been listening to angsty music all day and was inspired to make more icons.



( I loves me some broken boys )

You know I've made over a hundred icons of just Dean. Me, obsessed? No way. *L*

I made my first animated icon! I'm so proud of myself.


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I was a little mean to Sloane but I actually like Sloane. I'm not often a fan of the villians but he just had a certain je ne sais quoi.

ETA: Got another HP icon.
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( 20 icons and one friends only banner )

I made icons again. The first batch is random icons from MST3K and Harry Potter.
( There are a couple of ones with fanart from book seven so spoiler alert )

I also made icons of a few of my favorite characters with the name of the Hogwarts house I think they'd be in.

( Sorting characters into houses is my latest obsession )

I made a couple of Alias icons and my first ever Criminal Minds icons.



( I don't believe that intelligence can be accurately quantified, but I do have an IQ of 187, an eidetic memory, and can read 20,000 words per minute... Yes, I'm a genius. )

OMG they have Supernatural merchandise for sale now! Are action figures far away? I hope not, I really want my own little Dean. Speaking of which I really want to buy a Tara action figure. And double OMG they have a BtVS version of Wesley! But what the hell is up with him having no glasses? That's so an AtS Wesley thing. Where the hell is the Spydaddy action figure? They have Sloane and two different versions of Sydney but no Spydaddy! :(
I also want to buy this and this so I can mail them off to (hopefully) be autographed. Actually I really need to remind myself that it would be very bad to spend all my money on this stuff and not be able to eat. Eating is important, not eating leads to death.

Oh Spydaddy why did you have to die?! The scene with Sydney and Jack saying goodbye destroyed me! He told her how special she was and how he didn't want this life for her and she kept saying how she didn't want to leave him and I cried so hard. I hate that Jack had to die but at least he went out a hero. He sacrificed himself to stop Sloane and to save Sydney. I thought I was done crying and then they got to the scene where she told Dixon that she named her son Jack and I started all over again. Jack Bristow is the best dad ever! Period. And Sydney and Jack are the best father-daughter team ever! I love Veronica and Keith, but they can't even compare to the Bristows.

Guess what arrived in the mail today? Season 5 of Alias! I watched the first couple of episodes and I am confused. I know Vaughn is alive and well in the finale so what the hell happened when he "died"? Did APO fake the whole thing? Please tell me it wasn't another double. I was already pissed when they used that as an excuse for Spymommy coming back from the dead.

I don't remember which episode was the last one I watched before I quit. I think it was right when Amy Acker showed up as a villian. Not that I have anything against Amy Acker, other than the idea of her kicking anyone's ass being ridiculous. She's so skinny you could snap her in half like a twig! It's just the last episode I remember watching, she showed up.

Also as always I love Spydaddy forever and ever. I actually teared up a little at the scene where Sydney is talking about how Vaughn should have been there for the sonogram and Jack said "I'm here" and offered to go to her next appointment. *sigh* The last episode is going to wreck me.

P.S. Titanic is playing on my TV. (It's Spydaddy, but not as Spydaddy!) It's on TNT and they're already to the sinking. Yay, already past all the sappy romantic crap at the start. Not that there isn't sappy romantic crap at the end too but there's other stuff going on, like the sinking of the freaking Titanic!