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So I've been working on the sequel despite the fact that the only person who has even read the original was my beta. Isn't that sad? Not that I don't appreciate her doing it but as a beta you kinda have too. Anyway I'm not even close to done but it's turning out way longer than the original story. And way more detailed with the smuttiness which makes me all kinds of nervous and embarassed.
I'm going to start my "woe is me" whining again. I just don't know if it's my writing or if it's that people don't have an interest in it. But it seems everytime I go into a creative endeavor be it fanfic or icons nobody really seems to care. I guess maybe if I had like 400 people on my flist or something I might get more feedback but I have posted my stuff to communities before and gotten no response. I just feel like an utter failure a lot of the time you know? I try not to think about it and I try not to get down on myself but I can't help it. I feel like I contribute nothing. I mean why does anybody even stick around here? I wouldn't blame you all if you just defriended me cause I just whine and post crappy shit and I don't know why I bother. And then I go on fucking needy rants and if I was reading this on somebody else's journal I would be so annoyed with this bitch who won't shut up.
A couple of people I really like just de-friended me. :(
I'm going to start my "woe is me" whining again. I just don't know if it's my writing or if it's that people don't have an interest in it. But it seems everytime I go into a creative endeavor be it fanfic or icons nobody really seems to care. I guess maybe if I had like 400 people on my flist or something I might get more feedback but I have posted my stuff to communities before and gotten no response. I just feel like an utter failure a lot of the time you know? I try not to think about it and I try not to get down on myself but I can't help it. I feel like I contribute nothing. I mean why does anybody even stick around here? I wouldn't blame you all if you just defriended me cause I just whine and post crappy shit and I don't know why I bother. And then I go on fucking needy rants and if I was reading this on somebody else's journal I would be so annoyed with this bitch who won't shut up.
A couple of people I really like just de-friended me. :(
