Lost, scared, and alone

[fangirl1981]

I just feel so depressed lately. Like I just don't even know why I get out of bed because I have nothing to look forward to. My whole life is just like one long boring crapfest. I can't even think of anything I could feasibly do to make it better right now. *sigh*

Oh well I went shopping today and got my mom a birthday card and the Dixie Chicks C.D "Taking the Long Way" as a present. Her birthday isn't till August 16th but I like to get my gift shopping done early. The best part of this present is I get to download all the songs to my computer so I can enjoy it too. ;)


Tell me now if you came sneaking up behind
Would you know me and see behind the smile
I can change like colors on a wall
Hoping no one else will find what lies beneath it all
I think I hide it all so well

Stepping out, everyone can see my face
All the things I can't erase from my life
Everybody knows
Standing out so you won't forget my name
That's the way we play this game of life
Everybody knows

Looking through the crowd
I search for something else
But every time I turn around
I run into myself
Here I stand
Consumed with my surroundings
Just another day
Of everybody looking
I swore they'd never see me cry
You'll never see me cry

Stepping out, everyone can see my face
All the things I can't erase from my life
Everybody knows
Standing out so you won't forget my name
That's the way we play this game of life
Everybody knows

You say I'll pay the price
That's the chance that I'll take
Though you may think I'm telling lies
But I just call it getting by

Stepping out, everyone can see my face
All the things I can't erase from my life
Everybody knows

Standing out so you won't forget my name
That's the way we play this game of life
Everybody knows I am just barely getting by